I’m sorry February hasn’t been a great blogging month – things have been wild while we’re trying to pick up the pieces (literally) of our car and getting everything ready to go into selections for our house this next month (more exciting updates soon!). Something’s been on my mind all month and I haven’t been able to quite put my finger on it until today. Let me explain.
One of my goals as a front-end developer is to take some extra time every day to learn a new programming language, and I chose Python (learn more and join me in learning here) earlier this year. It took me a while to settle on this language over others and even longer to start the process of training. Why? Because I’m a perfectionist and I want to do it all right the first time around. That’s just not possible with programming as anyone who has dabbled in code can tell you.
So today, while I was training and learning so much, I found a bug that I had to work through and it completely exhausted me. It took everything I had not to just walk away and admit defeat. Confession: I walked around my office a few times today wondering whether I even have the chops to pull off learning such a language, especially since it’s such uncharted territory for me (which is why I picked it, after all!). And I think this happens to all of us, especially when we try to challenge ourselves and it’s extra arduous.
I recently lettered a quote that really hit home with me when I wrote it:
I read it and thought: yes, that’s entirely true. My only limit is me. And it led me to today, buried in code, exhausted, limited. Limited by my fear of failure. That was the only thing holding me back; not my abilities, not the time it takes to train, not my focus. My fear.
I’ve got to be honest and say it’s not a great way to start off your week, but I’m so grateful I got the perspective I did today. I worked through the bug and I’m ready to go back tomorrow a little sharper and with a little better footing. A little more capable and a lot more brave.
My question for you this week (month, year, etc.) is: who’s limiting you? I bet it’s not your best friend, or your mom, or your boyfriend. I bet it isn’t your boss or your colleagues. I bet it isn’t even the tool you’re using to complete whatever work you’re doing. I bet the person holding you back is right here reading this thinking Nope, not me, no way. And that’s okay for now. You’ve got to have a moment that really challenges you to help you understand the only way you’re going to get through your trials is if you get out of your own way and have some courage.
But promise me you’ll have some courage, because it’s so worth it when you come out on top (and you will).